Okay so it has almost been three weeks since I last updated. That's cool, right?
I guess a lot has happened since then.
I broke up with zach, he's a fag, etc etc, i'll explain a bit more later.
i met the black dahlia murder and some of cannibal corpse, but not corpsegrinder.
i also did not go to the concert /shoots self in the head
school is school. it's better then i give it credit for.

- I cannot decide whether I prefer Ozzy or Dio
- I'm done with being a stupid emotional female, it's just stupid and unnecessary. I broke up with Zach so now he has all the freedom to drown amongst his millions of emo girl obsessors without me giving a shit. Not that I really, truly did in the first place. Two middle fingers way up at st.albert/edmonton emos, especially Zach. I hate people.
- I dislike sluts. The kind you just want to punch in the face everytime you glance in their direction.
- I also hate girls with trashy fake hair and/or coon tails. Please eat shit and die.
- I generally have an eat-shit attitude.
- I saw a lot of people today. Katie, who came with me to west ed for the CC signing. Travis, whom I originally planned to go to the meet and greet with, but ditched out on him lulz. Justin, who is the cutest boy I think I've ever seen. Braden, Justin, Jordan and Troy - I still like Braden and Jordan is a cutie but Troy is an asshole and I didn't really get a chance to talk to Justin. Courtney and Jenn, who are both extremely cute. Gotta hang out with Courtney soon because I love her.
- It's okay to eat microwaved foods.
- I am such a sucker.
- I'm going to modest mouse with taxicab on the third of november. i'm so pumped!
- Josh needs someone to love (:
- There are a lot of shows I need to go to. All that remains this monday, HIM, terror with katie and a whooole bunch of others that I can't think of. I think I'm going to alexisonfire with jenn and courtney.
- fasfjnhksjfsf
- sleeping over at coral's tomorrow. should be interesting if zach is there :s

YEAH!
thats all i can think of for the moment.

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Just a pre-warning: I am extremely exhausted right nao.

School is okay... I mean english is gay and math makes me frustrates me to no end, but I'm still putting in effort. I did my homework tonight and I honestly feel accomplished.. If I had the habits I did last year, I would have just slept all evening and night after I came home from Logan's, and not really given a second thought about homework whatsoever. I really hope I can keep it that way, because I need to get my shit together, academic-wise.

After school today, I went to go pick up Logan. Had a good old stroll around the school. Stared at Bishop, said a couple of words to Miss Lemieux, talked to Wiles about school & whatnot for ten-ish minutes while his class ran wildly around the classroom. Devon (lobster devon) and Kiani showed up and it was good to see them. This is my first year living in St.Albert without Kiani in my school.. haha, I feel empty.

I've beeeen talking to a booooy on nexopia a lot recently, he's really sweet. I got to meet him today (: He's just as sweet and cute in person, if not, more so. I plan to hang out with him again soon.

After loitering around outside the school for half an hour, Logan and I walked to his house. His dad was nice enough to feed me! Logan and I played super smash bros and harassed his pets. Bahhha. It was good fun. I love taking pictures. When I have my camera, I just shutterbug over everything. fkhasfkjhfkhsafhf @ christmas time approaching.
Muuuuuuuust .... oooooowwwwwwwnnnnn canon rebel xti!!!

You know what is so kajhfkjahfakf? I have met so many new people recently, and befriended 99% of them! It feels good... knowing that I'm expanding my network of friends. Yay for being anti anti-social :D

Apparently I'm hanging out with Mark Newton tomorrow and I couldn't be any more excited! Out of anyone I haven't seen this summer, I definitely miss him the most. I love that kid.

Anyway I really need to sleep. I'm exhausted
I'm sick
I'm kfhkasfhksaf

kfjhdkasd
.

I haven't talked to Zach in what seems like forever
which is unsettling
but I don't know what to do about it
so....
okay?

kjhgffghjk

bedtime, right.

bye xo

I have some things to say,

because I feel like saying them.


- i just had four mood swings in 10 minutes. i was extremely happy for the first couple, just a general sort of happy. then i was disgusted, disgusted by jeffree star's band of skanks and cunts... then fine again, but that was quickly interrupted by a sudden burst of tears! i miss the old davey havok, and i guess that's what triggered my sudden unhappiness? i hate being a female. stupid estrogen. i don't even have my period right now. a kid in my la class even mentioned my mood swings today.... he also mentioned some other unmentionably suspicious things to katie. i do not wish to recite them because i feel repulsed.

- chris crocker is fucking scary.

- however, the new britney spears song is awfully catchy.

- the new birthday massacre cd is so, so good. i don't care what anyone says or thinks, but i will always love the birthday massacre. they even replied to my long love message to say thanks, and that they'd see me on the canadian tour. i think it's cute that they remember me as the little edmonton girl who was so pissed and upset about the only date being 18+.

- apparently i already have a lot of boys after me. boys i don't know, boys i've never seen and a boy who i sit beside in one class. DO NOT WANT!!!!!

- however, i am very pleased with the cute metal boys that have been messaging me on nexopia recently.

- other then that i feel guilty about my entire living. why, idunno, but it's still bugging me.

- i went and bugged harrison at work today for about an hour. he made me a drink ... some fruity soy milk thing (which tasted.... a lot like pepto bismol)... that made me throw up for 30 minutes when i got home.

- i absolutely love awkward kids.

- bring me the horizon is actually good. i usually avoid trendy music at all costs, but for some reason I ended up on their myspace last night, and listened to their songs for an hour or so, while I distracted myself until 2:30 am with the lead singer's clothing line. they are good.

- katie & I are going west ed for hat shopping.

- i hate it when people make mule nexopia accounts just to creep people with plus so they don't have  to let their true creeper face show. last night i had an account with the name 'magic66' creep me over 10 times within an hour.

- i am hanging out with logan tomorrow (: also, paying a little visit to lorne akins. i just want to see wiles.

- the homework load i have received in school is already unmanageable for me. i don't know whether to actually attempt to do it, or just shoot myself in the head.

- people need to stop freaking out about ZOMGBACK 2 SCHOOL. hghbnjk

- i need a job. very, very bad.

- coral is going to dye my hair for me (:

- sometimes i wish i could just remove my own brain, so i don't have to listen to it think.

- lauren is very, very pretty.


I THINK THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY

harry walked me .... halfway home on friday
OH SHIT THAT REMINDS ME
im supposed to go see him today
:s
oops.
well i'll go at like
6 or 7
im too dirty right now lulz
/havent showered in a while

i went to see the movie HALLOWEEN with brittany the other night
SOOOOOO
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD
OMGOMGOMG
near the end brittany and i were like CRYING AND SCREAMING
AND NUZZLLING EACH OTHER HAHAH
we were shaking
ugh
it was probably pretty funny for the other people in the theater
oh
the soundtrack is fucking AMAZING
rush
blue oyster cult
nazareth
alice cooper
the misfits
iggy pop

damn good

sheri moon is FAWKIN HOT

love


yeah i think thats it

Just kind of sitting around. Eating some popsicles.
T'was my first day of highschool today.
I wasn't nervous. I wasn't paranoid. I wasn't scared, stressed or all that intimidated, really.
I like my classes... except for math prep. I like the people in them except for math prep.
I've got friends.
blah de blah.
I'm fine.

art with julia and josh
math prep with no one
foods with julia and schristen
ela with schristen, katie, amy and a lot of funny and outgoing people.

I had a nap today at about 6 or 7 o'clock? And I just got up around 50 minutes ago.
I feel kind of gross and my tailbone is sore,
but whatever.

I just got made fun of for being with Zach by someone who means  alot to me.
It hurts. It sucks.
Fuck?

Oh well. I'll feel better in an hour or so when I've got a few popsicles in my stomach.
Listening to Def Leppard is good for me right now, too.
Listening to any music is good for me.
Doesn't judge me, laugh at me or make me feel invisible.

(:

Oh, today I was going through some random boy's blog on nexopia
I read a bunch of his entires about god and jesus
and they honestly made me nauseated
i felt bad though, that i find something that people cherish so much to be sickening.
sorry?

me: kay I'm going for a nap
mom: yeah I kind of figured you were going to say that. I don't know what the hell you were doing at three a'clock in the morning, but it sounded like you were having a bath in the sink.

ahahah
I was scrubbing my face >_>

registration was today. I had a good time, actually. Hung out with Brittany and Kristen and Katie in the lineup,
got my picture taken (probably looked like a fucking fag)
gave dylan a flying hug hahaha. I stuck to him like velcro o_O
I luh that kid.
Ummmm
signed some papers
ran around the school with my lockerbuddy julia (silent j)
got trapped by the art teacher; he talked to us about the class for about 30 minutes. He's an interesting man, actually. I'm excited to "embark" on the class.
Received threatening phone calls from katie,
met her and kristen outside
got attacked by Harrison XD
"BABYYYY I MISSED YOU. What grade are you going in to?" *smothers*
"uhh, ten."
"WHAT? I THOUGHT YOU TOLD ME YOU LIVED IN SHERWOOD PARK"
"uhh..."
hahahhaha
I love /b/tards.
I remember when I first actually talked about him, I just had to stare. He talked so much like the familiar, retarded white boys I'm used to from chan,
and so I asked him and we united in a /b/tard fashioned hug.
I saw him at Starbucks the other day andddd he was like "haaaay babyyyy"
but Zach was there so I was like ....."uhhhh"
hahahah

anyway I'm actually going to go nap,
I don't think I slept very much last night.
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and I quite possibly have a job at the rec center.
Gay, but I'll be working with nic and jordan decker ((:

I hung out with Courtney on saturday, and she's really great. We went to whyte ave & west ed and  picked up a skeet cradle of filth shirt. other then that we kinda ran around the mall.... and.... got princess photobooth pictures -___- even though i was so against it. ahahah. but it turned out okay, we look really cute, and myles jumped in to some of the pictures. I hope she finds a way to scan them soon.
We talked about Zach a lot. It was good for me to hear her opinion and such... but I still don't think it affects me much.

I was with Zach yesterday and today and everything seems fine. It's only afterwards, when I come home and have nothing but silence to myself. It's really difficult to describe what's going on in my head. Plenty of debating, that's for sure.
He's a horndog. It bothers me, but at the same time, I don't really mind.
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School supply shopping today. School photos in the morning. I've got all of the stuff I need, but I'm still not ready to start.
I don't want to let go of summer.

I have to be awake in five hours,
fuck.life.

I should try and sleep.